Reasons I have experienced trauma

A McSweeney’s-style list (read: McSweeney’s did not want to publish this, but in the Internet age, #selfpublishing #FTW. Yeehaw!)

Donald Trump’s presidency;

The global COVID-19 pandemic;

The lack of closure in the Sopranos finale;

The time I got fired over Skype by a boss who said that the edits I had suggested to something he wrote six months earlier made him “feel so alone”;

The time a colleague who had a habit of wearing too-tight jeans and resting his hands in a genital-framing position called me a control freak, and then my boss set up a mediation meeting with HR, during which said colleague was invited to deliver a monologue about what a control freak I was, and I had to just sit there and listen;

Wearing a bra for approximately eight hours a day nearly every day of my life for over three decades, until the onset of the aforementioned pandemic, when I let those babies hang loose;

The time I flew to the wrong San Jose (wanted: Costa Rica; flew to: Cali);

The job right out of college where our success was measured in terms of “productivity points” and people said things like “let’s double click on that idea”;

Every time I’ve kept a “food log”;

The cultural expectation that I stay awake past 8pm;

The few occasions during the pandemic for which I have put on a bra;

The romper trend;

Pretending that zucchini slices are pasta;

Growing up blind to the patriarchy yet being constrained by it at every turn in ways I am still unpacking with the help of extensive therapy and life coaching which are empowering me to overcome my well-founded fear of retribution to express myself fully and without apology;

The specter of bra-wearing once the world opens up again;

And, finally, getting rejected by McSweeney’s.

Writer and mother. On a mission to fill the world with stories that tell the truth about women—and with women who tell their stories.

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